Saturday, December 27, 2014

Creating and Deleting


I don't think I'm alone in cringing when reviewing something I created years ago, whatever that creation might be: a blog post, Facebook post, a YouTube video, a story, or even a picture of myself during middle school because that, too (my identity), was something I was in the process of creating.

Yes, this is a middle-school-aged picture of me at camp...
Most the time I just want to hit DELETE or toss my writings in the trash, but as I mature over time I've come to truly appreciate my older creations. It's interesting to see how I conceptualized the world during certain periods of my life. Like for instance, during my back surgeries (an incredibly hellish point in my life), I was surprised/not surprised to discover that I had a great sense of humor. Sure, I vented about my frustrations and certain words are blurred from tears that fell onto the pages, but I was also funny and even joked about all the craziness in my life. It makes me really proud of my sixteen-year-old self, to know how optimistic I was.

Then there are moments in my past journals that make me not so proud, especially when I find something rather hateful I said. It's embarrassing to realize that version of me ever existed. These are the kinds of things I'd love to burn, erase, make disappear forever.

But here's the thing: While I can destroy these documentations, the fact that that version of me existed at one point in time can never be erased. It happened and there's nothing I can do about it.

So I just have to accept it, move on, and be happy about who I am now and how that, too, will evolve over time.

I write this because it's scary to create and to put yourself out there. I've been thinking about this frequently as I work on The Be Ok Blog and plan other future creations (such as a second novel, YouTube channel, and heck, even graduating college).

I just want to encourage you not to delete and instead continue to create. It's quite unfortunate sometimes because I'll think too much about what I did or didn't do in the past--wishing I could delete something--and it takes time and energies away from my present and what I could be creating. Still mastering this.

Here are some videos I wanted to share with you on this subject:

Blog to you later!


Saturday, December 20, 2014

Favorite Music of 2014


So at the end of every year I make a list of my favorite music I heard that year--this list doesn't necessary mean songs that only came out in 2014, but songs that were also introduced to me during this year and also songs I listened to on repeat. In no particular order, here it is:

  1. Welcome Home by Radical Face
  2. Shake It Off  by Taylor Swift
  3. Budapest by George Ezra 
  4. All About That Bass  by Meghan Trainor 
  5. The Hanging Tree by Jennifer Lawrence
  6. Take Me to Church  by Hozier 
  7. Beware of the Dog by The Griswolds 
  8. Riptide by Vance Joy 
  9. Play With Fire by Vance Joy 
  10. Mess is Mine by Vance Joy 
  11. Moonage Day by David Bowie 
  12. Turn Down for What by Lil Jon
  13. End of the Affair by Ben Howard
  14. Old Pine by Ben Howard
  15. Oceans by Hillsong United
  16. Hillsong United - ZION Acoustic 
  17. Greater by Mercy Me 
  18. Shake by Mercy Me 
  19. Hooked on a Feeling by Blue Swede 
  20. Boom Clap by Charli XCX 
  21. Choosing Dauntless from the Divergent Score 
  22. I Need You by M83 
  23. Wait by M83 
  24. All I Want by Kodaline 
  25. Long Way Down by Tom Odell
  26. Strange Things Will Happen by The Radio Dept. 
  27. Not About Angels by Birdy 
  28. Skinny Love by Bon Iver 
  29. The Girl by City and Colour
  30. My Blood by Ellie Goulding 
  31. Don't Wanna Dance by MO (saw in concert this year) 
  32. Hanging On by Ellie Goulding 
  33. Beating Heart by Ellie Goulding 
  34. New Years Eve by First Aid Kit 
  35. Simple As This by Jake Bugg
  36. Secrets by Mary Lambert  
  37. Ordinary Human by One Republic 
  38. What You Wanted by One Republic 
  39. Love Runs Out by One Republic 
  40. I Lived by One Republic 
  41. Let Me In by Grouplove 
  42. Shark Attack by Grouplove 
  43. The Fault in Our Stars Score by Mike Mogis & Nathaniel Walcott 
  44. The Hunger Games: Mockingjay Part 1 Score by James Newton Howard 
And the MOST PLAYED SONG OF THE YEAR AWARD goes to: The Walker by Fitz & The Tantrums 

I think that's about it for now... I may add more later if I remember them! 

How about you? 
What were your favorite songs from 2014?


Monday, December 8, 2014

Happy Finals Week

Happy Finals Week!
I've come to provide some comic relief.

Keep calm. 

Take advantage of puppy stress relief if your campus provides it. As my professor once said: "Puppies are wonderful." 

Take care of yourself. Get sleep. Eat well. Exercise. 
Nope, it's reality. Face it! 

Have confidence going into your finals!
Listen to those who have faith in you! 

Don't forget to breathe. 

Get your game face on!

When you don't know the answer to that ONE question... 
When you're cruising through your final. 

When you finish your finals! 

Celebrate with ice cream. 
Good luck everyone!
Blog to you later! 


Monday, December 1, 2014

Winter Term 2014 Dead Week (Last One As An Undergraduate Student)


Good luck to everyone dealing with dead week right now! 

Finding out it's dead week. 

Becoming overwhelmed. 

Fake it until you make it.

Try to find some time to relax. 
How you feel when you're done with your finals!

Blog to you later!